I thought I'd mark this occasion with an entry. I never realised till I started but I've never sat alone in the house drinking. Pretty much doing nothing else. Listening to obscenely loud music and dancing around like an idiot.

I have never felt quite so chaotic. Things were just flashing around in my head. All these pictures of the creator, Kim, random people from uni, my parents, failing...at what? I dunno. Uni...failing uni, failing TKD, breaking bones. All this shit came rushing in my head at once. I suddenly got really hot in this freezing house and I don't even know what the hell I was doing.

I eventually found myself sitting on my bed, my ears hurting, and I was holding an empty glass. I don't really know where I've been the past 3 hours.

Now I'm freezing cold and I really miss Kim. Tonight was scary, I don't want that to happen again.

Telling Myself How I Feel - April 05, 2009
Lump of Loss - April 05, 2009
Start of Summer - March 21, 2009
Nuzzler - January 10, 2009
Reflections 2008 - December 31, 2008